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[Thursday
September 20th, 2012 ]

I'm over this week. I'm over people in general. I'm over living in this town. I wish I could fast forward a few years to where I'm making 25k more a year and can afford to move to another city and work at a different government agency. I need a city full of hot lesbians cuz this scene is just pathetic!!

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[Wednesday
September 19th, 2012 ]

One of the things I miss about being in love is looking at that person and having them surprise me. Looking at them and telling them that they're amazing. Making my heart melt.

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[Tuesday
December 14th, 2010 ]
[ mood | bored ]

My eyes are heavy and I don't feel like working. It's so cold outside. Every morning is the same thing. Not wanting to get out of bed because I'm all warm and cuddled up with Stephanie. I have to say, her and I are doing great. I'm looking forward to Christmas with her. I'm also looking forward to our trip that's coming up. I got it in my head that I needed a vacation. Just a little trip out of town to celebrate me finishing another semester of school. Ed had mentioned that he would like to go to Cleveland soon. Away the wheels in my head went, so I've planned a trip for me, Steph, mom, Debbie and Ed to go to Cleveland for a couple days and nights. We are leaving Sunday and will be back some time on Tuesday. We bought tickets to watch the Cavaliers play the Jazz on Monday night. It'll be the closest that I'll probably get to Utah for a minute. We're also planning on going to the Natural History Museum, an art museum, and the zoo. I'm sure we'll hit up some bars, restaurants, and do some shopping too. I'm so excited though! It'll be mine and Steph's first mini vacation together. The four day weekend is great for me too!

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[Friday
November 26th, 2010 ]
[ mood | bored ]

I'm seriously bored out of my mind at work today. There's hardly anyone here and I really don't have anything to work on. So far my morning has consisted of a very small amount of work and several games on my phone. I had a good thanksgiving. Steph came to our house for dinner and then I went to her grandma's house for dinner with her family. I met several of her relatives for the first time. I was so nervous but I think it went really well. Her family was very welcoming to me. I got asked if they would see me soon and I said probably so. I want to spend every holiday with my girl so I'm sure I'll see all of them a lot more.

Big football games on today. Wvu plays Pitt at noon and Auburn plays Alabama at 2:30. The Auburn game is obviously the most important game! I can't wait!

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[Tuesday
November 9th, 2010 ]
[ mood | calm ]

I'm so over the bullshit drama of today and the past few days. I'm so glad I know at the end of the night that I'll see my girl and everything will be perfect. I will never understand why people who are my age are so fucking immature. They act like they're in grade school. Petty fights and shit talking. Using people for their own selfish reasons. Not the kind of person I was raised to be. Be honest, be loyal, be there for someone always. Doesn't seem like too much to expect from someone, but apparently some people just aren't capable of being a decent human being.

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[Friday
November 5th, 2010 ]
[ mood | loved ]

I fall more in love with her every day. It's amazing. She's amazing. I always want more of her. More time with her. I can see my future with her.

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[Tuesday
November 2nd, 2010 ]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I'm dragging ass at work today. I'm so ready to leave and I still have an hour and half to go! It's even more depressing that I have to go home and work on homework for a couple of hours. I miss my girlfriend. I haven't seen her since I took her home yesterday morning and that's way too long. It seems like if I'm not with her, I'm waiting until it's time to be with her. I am so sprung on this girl. I could crawl into a hole with her and be perfectly happy. Thank god I get to see her tonight!

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[Friday
October 29th, 2010 ]
[ mood | hungry ]

I fall more for Stephanie every day. We had an amazing night last night. I took her to see Paranormal Activity 2 and then we came back to my house and watched The Fourth Kind. She was having trouble winding down so I massaged her back for her. The massage led to more and it was incredible. We layed there and talked. She asked me to tell her a story. I shared some humorous childhood stories that I thought she would find funny, which she did. I feel like I can't get enough of her. If I'm not with her, I'm thinking about her. She opens up to me more and more. I love that she's able to trust me more and more. She spent the night with me tonight and I'm sure she'll stay with me the next two or three nights. I wake up so happy with her next to me.

I wish lunch time would hurry up and get here.

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[Wednesday
October 27th, 2010 ]
[ mood | loved ]

I told Steph that I love her. Somehow I've let my guard down and she has captured my heart. Our relationship is better than ever. She didn't tell me that she loved me at first. But last night she opened up and told me that she loves me. We can't get enough of one another. As soon as we're away from each other, one of us always texts the other one saying that we miss them already. She makes me smile.

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[Thursday
October 14th, 2010 ]
Well let's see. Apparently my girlfriend has serious mood issues and I'm not gonna get to see her before I leave. I waved at my ex today and she told me to never contact her again. Have I mentioned how much I hate this fucking town?!
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[Thursday
October 14th, 2010 ]
[ mood | anxious ]

This day is dragging by. The sooner I get out of work, the sooner I can see my girl. We haven't seen each other since Tuesday morning and we both act like we're about to die lol. We're already stressing about me being out of town this weekend. She's definitely my first stop as soon as I get back to town. I'm even taking Monday morning off so I can sleep in with her longer.

I'm so ready for lunch. I forgot my damn crackers again and I feel like my stomach is eating itself.

I can't wait to party with my Auburn peeps this weekend!!!

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[Wednesday
October 13th, 2010 ]
[ mood | hungry ]

1.5 more days and then I'm off to the Auburn game!! I can't wait! Steph is staying with me tonight since she won't be able to stay with me again until I get back from Auburn. It's gonna be a badass weekend but I'm gonna be missing my girl bigtime!

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[Tuesday
October 12th, 2010 ]
[ mood | loved ]

What a great weekend! All my teams won their games on Saturday. I got to hang out with my girl for the majority of the weekend. She absolutely blows my mind. I'm totally falling for her. I just can't get enough of her. I'll be out of town for the Auburn vs Arkansas game this weekend and I'm gonna miss her like crazy!

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[Friday
October 8th, 2010 ]
[ mood | loved ]

Aww my girl made me listen to "Just the Way You Are" by Bruno Mars!! I asked her why I had to listen to it and she said because I'm beautiful. Terribly hard to protect my heart whenever she seems to penetrate it so easily. She spent the night with me last night. I sleep so well with her in my arms.

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[Thursday
October 7th, 2010 ]
[ mood | hungry ]

I thought Stephanie were over last night and I was so bummed about it. She had said she was gonna go home and do as much homework as she could so we could see each other. I had sent her a few texts and never heard a thing back. Then I see she posted a pic of her and her tweeker ex gf on her wall. I assumed the worst and thought she had blown off homework and me to hang out with her ex. I wake up several times during the night to look at my phone and didn't see a text. Then this morning I didn't get my morning wake up text that she always sends me. I figured all of the super sweet things she had said to me were bullshit and that she was avoiding me. I come to work this morning and eventually my cell phone rings and it's her. She was literally freaking out. She forgot her phone at school and didn't have my number. She was so worried that I was gonna break up with her (which I had already done for the time being). I was so relieved that she called and we got everything cleared up. Is it bad tho that I still have my doubts? I have a hard time trusting people. It seems like there are a lot more shady liars in the world than honest people. I've decided to take her word for it. I mean I have no proof that she's lying to me, so I have to trust her. I feel like my guard is up more though. I'm really trying not to get hurt for what seems like the millionth time. I'll just have to see how it goes. Only time will tell.

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[Tuesday
October 5th, 2010 ]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I've been neglecting myself of sleep to be with my girl. The relationship status has been updated. We agreed not to see other people. <3

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[Monday
October 4th, 2010 ]
Omigod I think I'm falling in love with her.
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[Monday
October 4th, 2010 ]
[ mood | loved ]

What an amazing weekend! That was the best birthday ever! Steph stayed with me from Friday night till this morning. We layed in bed most of the time and she started my Monday off in the best possible way. I'm so into this girl. She says the sweetest things. Tells me how happy I make her. How lucky she is to have me. I'm ready to see her asap!

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[Saturday
October 2nd, 2010 ]
Best birthday ever!!!
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[Friday
October 1st, 2010 ]
[ mood | excited ]

I am having an awesome birthday so far. I got flowers delivered to my work. A coworker got me a $15 gift card to Tim Hortons. Several people signed a bday card for me. My facebook and phone have been blowing up all day with bday wishes. My baby set her alarm to wake her up at midnight so she could text me right away. There are like 30 people coming out to celebrate with me tonight. I have a beautiful date who I cannot wait to spend my bday with. All in all it just couldn't get any better. Next big event will be flying to Alabama to go to the Auburn Arkansas game. I'm so happy in life right now.

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